I feel it’s only polite to invite you over to find out a little more about me.
I am Adele, a mother, artists & photographer. I gave birth to my daughter in 2016 and since then I have been keeping journals documenting my thoughts and feelings post motherhood. I feel motherhood has fundamentally changed so much of who I am, it changed my world in ways I wasn’t quite expecting. From struggling with incredibly limiting hypermobility (and associated pain & fatigue), to working out my identity after motherhood. For some reason motherhood seemed to change a lot of who I thought I was and what I thought I knew about myself.
How I arrived at this project
A brief summary or you’ll be here all day…
In 2015 I fell pregnant with my first and only daughter. Pregnancy was hard. My body struggled. My body continued to struggle in the years to come. It is only now as my daughter starts school that my body has returned to some sort of manageable normality. And it is only now as she starts school that I feel that I am in a space with room enough to create that I am ready to peel back the layers of the story which I have to tell.
Motherhood has been a gift. There is no doubt about that. But the road has not all been glitter and sparkles. It has not been one saccharin sweet insta post after another. It has been messy and complex and complicated as I have unwoven the tapestry of what I found myself clinging on to so tightly.
It is not that motherhood is savage or something I would not wish on an enemy. It is not that at all. Through experiencing motherhood, I have discovered the hard jagged edges and the dark cold surfaces of my own self, that I am now able to shine a light on and with warmth and acceptance understand where my edges and limits can be found. I no longer exist in the small comfort zone of my pre-mum existence. My inner walls have been torn down and I’ve learnt more about myself in 4 years than I have in the previous 30.
So I invite you to come with me on this journey, to venture through the layers of motherhood as I prod and poke and reflect. What I have learnt most of all on my motherhood journey is that as I understand all the layers of me I am able to more easily respect all the layers of you too. Though your layers will never be known to me, the knowing of my own allows me to recognise that whilst we are all different and come to the conversation with different experiences, sensitivities, personalities and souls we all contain our own many layers. None of us walk this earth untouched by pain and fear.
If you would like to contribute to my project I will be asking for community contributions for certain pieces. Sign up to my mailing list if you might be interested.
In the meantime I shall be working on conceptual pieces, removing the masks and peeling back the layers on my own experience of motherhood and I hope it gives you the space, permission or inspiration (whichever is applicable) to reflect on your experience too.
I’ll not only be delicately reflecting on my own generational lineage but also the societal and personal expectations of mothers and motherhood as well as the bonds, and things I have learnt in the direct relationship with my own daughter and as a result my own mother. It is a tangled web that we weave ourselves sometimes and for me, motherhood was a web of my own creation with more than a little outside help. Expect some feminist thoughts to be littered throughout.
The person behind the images
I’m a deep thinking creative and you’ll usually find me at home. And if somewhere new you’ll find me watching from the sidelines sussing out the scene and working out who I’ll feel most comfortable speaking to. I’m naturally quite introverted and prefer smaller groups or one on one chat, usually straight into the deep end, discussing the meaning of life or how the human mind is endlessly fascinating. I love (and often crave) silence and really enjoy time alone in the pockets of time between life as it happens.
Although rather quiet once you’ve got to know me a little better, you’ll most likely struggle to get me to shut up. I can be a total chatterbox and I love nothing more than a good natter.
Here are some perhaps not so fascinating facts…
- Coffee lover/addict (but only before lunch)
- Northern Lass that married a Southerner (I’m in the UK)
- An avid reader of all things psychology & spirituality (astrology, healing, dream analysis & Tarot)
- A dreamer & creator
- A frequent meditator and almost daily journal-er
- Massively into how psychology and spirituality intertwine
- hypermobility sufferer, the pain comes and goes depending on how I manage it.
- Mother to a little person
- Working hard on being more visible and showing my face online
- INFP-T (a true idealist, always looking for the hint of good in even the worst of people and events, searching for ways to make things better. While perceived as calm, reserved, or even shy, Mediators have an inner flame and passion that can truly shine).
- A Creator & Dynamo (Talent Dynamics) – An intuitive and innovative thinker who is great at getting things started and who needs growth to stay motivated.
- An Aries with Libra rising & moon in Virgo – dominant cardinal fire signs burning bright internally, whilst externally I am an accomodating mediator who is pleasant and fair. I’m an analytical thinker when it comes to emotions and Pluto in my chart predicts a deep interest in the unconscious, psychoanalysis and investigating dreams. Opposition aspect occurs the most in my natal chart (a whopping 8 times) which gives me the ability to see different points of view.
- I frequently have dreams/meditations where I can feel a hand around my throat. I was born with the umbilical cord wrapped around my neck three times, I arrived blue. Some might believe I was a hung witch in a past life. I definitely think my unconscious is telling me that my throat chakra/my voice is needing to be heard, that I have to overcome being silenced and speak my truth. Which is what I wish to share through this imagery and series. My truth.
- I also have many dreams and meditative visions of being submerged in beautiful blue still water and eagles flying overhead. Read into that what you will.
- I studied Visual Communications, which allowed me to dive into subjects which spoke most to me. Photography, Graphic Design & Illustration. I developed skills that allowed me to express the things in my head visually and it sparked such a passion.
- My create joy/flow comes from taking a practical idea or concept and making it visual.
Thanks so much for being here!
Much love xx